Martín Adán, The Cardboard House, Trans. by Katherine Silver, New Directions, 2012. [1928.]
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The Cardboard House
is a short, beautiful book. The Peruvian writer Martín Adán originally
published the work in 1928, when he was only twenty years old, and in
the decades since, The Cardboard House has been praised by
numerous Latin American authors, from Mario Vargas Llosa to César Aira.
Graywolf Press published a translation by Katherine Silver in 1990, and
now New Directions is reissuing the book with sections omitted from the
original, and with Silver correcting her previous mistranslations. To
Aira, the book is “the most representative—and the best— of the Latin
American avant-garde of the 1920s.” Without narrative structure,
characters, or plot, The Cardboard House is clearly the work of a poet, and Adán’s prose deserve to be read out loud.
It is a book of imagery: “In the
morning, on the sharp edge of dawn, from the casement windows of the
towers and in the awkward flight of frightened birds and soggy bells,
the old lay-sisters descend through their witches Sabbath of trees and
poles.”
It is a book of categorized lists of
description: “The slope of the cliff plunged into fig trees, moist
earth, trenches, moss, vines, Japanese pavilions; from top to bottom,
from the parish church to the beach.”
It is a book of sensation: “Breakfast is
a warm ball in the stomach, the hardness of the dining room chair on
the buttocks, and the solemn desire in the body not to go to school.”
It is a book of metaphor: “The
streetlamps are the most vegetable thing in the world, in an analytic,
synthetic, scientific, passive, decisive, botanical, simple way—the
upper edges of the trunks support crystal jars that hold yellow
flowers.”
It is a book of beautiful writing:
“Liquefied Mozart poured down the staircase and formed puddles in the
hollows like a torrent of rain that had soaked through the roof.”
Above all, The Cardboard House
is a book of a young man’s thought process. The young narrator struggles
to find love within himself. He knows he should be good. But he also
knows that “happiness isn’t enough to make one happy.”
As an adult, Adán became reclusive and
alcoholic; despite immense talent for transcribing observations in
epiphanic and aesthetically masterful sentences, the philosophical house
of humanism that he’d constructed turned out to have been made of
cardboard. - thecoffinfactory.com
The following was written in response to a
letter to Adán from Celia Paschero, an associate of Jorge Luis Borges,
who was coming to Lima to do research for her doctoral thesis, Contemporary Peruvian Poetry. The letter read: The
reason for this letter? In addition to expressing my affection for
you, I have another purpose: to ask you for information about your
life, if possible, told with all the spice you know how to sprinkle on
everything you say and write, because I have suggested writing an
article about you for La Nacion . . . I have just started
publishing articles with them, and I want to write a human article,
through which one can feel your blood and your skin . . . I know that
this whole business could be loathsome to you. But in the name of the
warmth there was between us when we met, in the name of the affection I
feel for you, in the name of my profound admiration for you, please
respond to my request. Leave aside all your bohemianism and spill it
all out in what you write to me and . . . speak to me about yourself.
Can you?
You want to know about my life?
I know only of my passing through,
of my weight,
of my sadness
and my shoe.
Why ask who I am, where I’m going?
Because you know plenty about the Poet, the difficult
and sensitive volume of my being human,
which is a body and a vocation,
nonetheless.
Yes, I was born,
the Year remembers my birth,
but I don’t remember,
because I live it, because I kill myself.
My Angel isn’t a Guardian Angel,
my Angel is of Satiety, of Remnants,
and carries me endlessly,
stumbling, always stumbling
in this dazzling shadow
that is Life
and its deceit
and its charm.
When you know everything . . .
When you know not to ask . . .
Just chew on your mortal fingernail
and then I will tell you my life,
which is nothing but a mere word more . . .
The whole of your life is like the wave:
knowing how to kill,
and knowing how to die,
and not knowing how to tame plentitude,
and not knowing how to wander home to the source,
and not knowing how to quiet longing . . .
If you want to know about my life,
go look at the Sea.
Why do you ask me, Learned One?
Don’t you know that in the World,
everything gathers from nothing:
a shrinking immensity from here to the next star,
nothing but a trace
eternally barely the shadow of an appetite?
The real task, if that’s what you aspire to,
is not to understand life, but to imagine it.
The real isn’t captured: it is followed,
and that’s what dreams and words are for.
Beware your innovations . . .
Beware your distances . . .
Beware your thresholds . . .
Beware your refuge . . .
Who am I?
I am I,
ineffable and innumerable,
the figure and soul of rage.
No, that was at the end . . . and it was the beginning
and it was before the beginning began.
I am a body of spirit fury,
which is serene
and of harsh irony.
No, I am not the one who seeks the poem,
nor life . . .
I am an animal hunted by its own being
which is a truth and a lie.
My being is so simple and so breathless,
a piercing of a nerve, of flesh . . .
I was looking for another,
one who has been my search for myself,
I didn’t want, and don’t want now, to be me --
but another who has saved himself,
or who will,
not the being of Instinct, who gets lost,
or of Understanding, who steps back.
My day is a different day,
some days I don’t know where to be,
I don’t know where to go in my jungle,
among my reptiles and my trees,
my books and mortar
and neon stars
and women rising around me like a wall,
or like no one at all, or like a mother . . .
and the newborn who cries over me
and through the streets
and all the wheels,
primal and for real.
Such is the whole of my days,
unto my last afternoon.
The Other, that companion, is a ghost.
Is there air
on which you choke and yet delight
in breathing,
in your inane body?
No!
Nothing equals the endless surprise
of finding yourself again,
always you, the same selves among the same walls
made of distances and streets . . .
And the same skies, roofs
that never kill me because they never come down . . .
And I’ve never achieved the turbulence of the divine
nor affection for the human.
I’m this way without regret.
That’s not how I feel.
By day I am the Outsider
and, if I think about it, the Absolute of Zoology.
Or like the ferocious carnivore if I take hold.
Am I the Creature or the Creator?
Am I Matter or Miracle?
You ask: what is mine and what is another’s . . .
Who am I?
Do you think I know?
But no, the Other doesn’t exist,
only I am, fiendish and orgasmic!
With all my dreamed-again dreams,
and all the coins collected,
and all of my body
resurrected after every coitus,
blind, vain, without a reflecting pupil . . .
When you’ve become nothing more than being,
and if you reap the age of dying,
and when you have learned, and truly know,
that life and death are yoked together . . .
Then I will tell you who I am,
certainly, yes, and without a voice, my friend!
They heal themselves with potent herbs,
those pure animals who speak to you,
there, among immaterial stones,
in the world of our reality and our sciences
where putative foul-smelling boys
have had some fun.
Indeed, life is thus a delirium,
and yet my nothingness,
never revealed in this life,
nothing of it,
yes, is real, like the exalted blue,
or volcanic.
How late Time comes to forgetfulness
and detection.
It comes dragging — like a deluge —
aggregations, earth, the human.
How one comes to oneself at the wrong time!
How unforeseen and desperate is every now,
every I that collapses within Time,
forever always and always never.
Eternal unsleeping dawn
in which I resign myself to my deeds
and my thinking!
Loneliness is the hard rock
against which the Air hurls itself.
It dwells in every wall of the City,
complicit, hidden.
Ceaselessly I hurl myself,
my own hazard, my own creation.
Poetry, my friend,
is inexhaustible, incorrigible, indwelling.
It is the infinite river,
wholly blood, wholly meandering, wholly ruin
dragging along what we live . .
What is the Word
but a vain and varied shout?
What is the image of the Poetic
but a log quickly shifting beneath the nullity of a cat?
It’s all a deluge
and if it weren’t
nothing would be real, be the same.
Love knew only
to swallow its own substance.
This is how Creation renewed itself.
For me, the world is yesterday, but I’m alive,
and sometimes I believe,
and the moment suckles me
I’m not one who knows.
I‘m one who no longer believes.
Not in man,
or in woman,
or in a single story house,
or in a pancake with syrup.
I ‘m nothing more than a word
flying out of my forehead,
taking pity on itself, perhaps nesting
somewhere high above this sad spring.
As for Being,
don’t ask me again,
I no longer know . . .
And I knew simply I was no longer
what I was not,
I don’t know how,
and that things were,
even this nothingness of me.
I was seeking,
I don’t know when,
numinous and ensnared
within it . . .
I, born scrawny, already fully armed
and seeking the word with every step,
any word,
one that burrows
or one that leaps.
If this isn’t my life,
what could life be?
Divinations?
May time from within itself give me Time
and I will remake my eternity,
the eternity I no longer have
because I discarded it . . .
having held it for one moment too long.
Have you heard of the abandoned ports
of lunacy and taking leave,
of the cetacean with its drenched costume
that can’t swim and keeps falling?
Have you known so much about a city
that rather than a city
it seems like a dismembered corpse,
myriad and infinitesimal?
You know nothing.
You know only to query.
You know only wisdom.
But wisdom is not to be with no thought
of anything at all:
but rather to keep on,
on foot: into now.
Excerpt:
Winter in Barranco has already begun -- a peculiar, daft, and fragile winter that might just cleave the sky and let a tip of summer peek through. The mist of this small winter, affairs of the soul, puffs of sea breeze, the mist of a boat trip from one pier to another, the sonorous flutter of rushing lay-sisters, opaque sounds of Mass, winter newly arrived... Now, off to school with cold hands. Breakfast is a warm ball in the stomach, the hardness of the dining room chair on the buttocks, and the solemn desire in the entire body not to go to school. The frond of the palm tree hovers over a house: flabellate, gently somber, pure, pink, glistening. And now you whistle with the streetcar, boy with closed eyes. You do not understand how one can possibly go to school so early in the morning, especially when there are esplanades and the sea below. But as you walk down the street that traverses almost the entire city, you smell the perfume of distant vegetables in nearby gardens. You think of the lush, wet fields: almost urban behind you; limitless in front of you, between the ash and elder trees, toward the bluish sierra. Barely the outline of the first foothills, the mountains' eyebrow... And now you pass through the fields surrounded by muffled beehive sounds of fleeting friction over rails and a flourish of athletic though urban gymnastics. Now the sun grinds to golden a mountain peak and an ancient burial mound, a yellow knoll like the sun itself. And you do not want it to be summer, but rather winter vacation, tiny and weak, with no school and no heat.
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